happy to me

I'm learning to enjoy every minute of my life. 

Be happy, less expecting and don't wait for something to make me happy. Sit back, relax , take a moment and think how precious is the time i have to spend on work? spend on family? & on my friend? 

Being me, I always believe that every minute should be enjoyed and savored. 

i want to be happy. the moment when u smile and the feeling when u manage to make people smile.. its precious =)

For me & i believe many of us happy is an elusive, fleeting state that we can capture only for brief moment, before it floats away like dust in the world. The truth as a human being almost all of my momentum is driven by my pursuit of happiness. Even the desire to socialize, to love and to connect with other human being is driven by my desire to be happy..

The pursuit of better job, higher status, wealth.. well, i guess the root for everything we're chasing is happiness. isn't it? this certainly doesn't mean that everything we chase will bring us happiness.

in the inside, a big part of me is struggling with this life figuring out what will make me happy , what makes me a better person, perhaps more importantly what makes me consistently happy.

Insya Allah

you

I saw u at your worst but i stayed

U saw me at my best and u still left. 

Pasti?

Mana mungkin kau jadi penggantinya

Kerna aku bukan yg aku tahu..

Pasti?

Period Part 3

dah lama x update.. i jumpa draft pasal Period Part 3 story... after 1-2 years baru sambung balikk.. kau mampu?? hahhaha.. then, bila saya habis belajar saya start keje tapi mula2 dapat training dgn klia.. so, dah start ada duit sdiri *hiphiphooray* tp xlah byk sgt.. but, alhamdulillah!!!

n start kerje klia, i start eating healthy food, clean giler!! malam lepas 6 mmg x mkn.. siang pon makan vegie n nasi kurangkan..protein, serat lebihkan.. sgt consisten kot time niee.. x lama lepas tu i start makan herbalife.. ice mmg sto trus  and x mkb ubat hormon lagi setiap bulan.. ubat tu nak force period datang.. a the same time, ibu byk advise and bg minum jus/cider delima, aloe vera and kurma n i feel bless.. syukur alhamdulilah ... HERBAlife?? serius is a good product.. masalah pada saya.. as i consume HB, i lost my weight, my period stabil without ubat but its not my blood.. the soy contains in my blood increase and its affect me.. So, i stop HB.. n da problem start back.. tp dis time my period datang every 2 month n x la mcm dulu.. in a consistent day and time.

so dont give up!! tipu la kalau saya ckp saya x give up.. tp, saya recall balik n ingat what have my mother do n help me through it all this while.. tp saya faham sbb saya i tau how pressure u are sbb bertahun2 u try to identified and nak settlekan masalah tu tp x sudah2.. but, alhamdulillah things gets better!

menggembirakan org adalah penawar kepada kesedihan.. kita happykan orang and moment tu tuhan je yg tau bagaimana happynya hati kita bila kita gembirakan others..automatik saya terasa mahu mendoakan agar mereka diberi limpahan rezeki..so bayangkanlah betapa ramai org mendoakan kite kalu kite mengembirakan ramai orng...

Nota kaki: Refer Part 1 and Part 2... =)

Nyata jelita FAREEDA

Tittle nak hebat jerkk... Tp mmg panas les ni lately. Nak komen jugak, tp x nakla menyemak kat wall org laen nnt x pasal2 kne sembur dgn KW. so meh kita tulis kat blog sdiri, kata pon pendapat sendiri kan.. 😬

Bila nak beli kereta

Kena tgk kita mampu atau tidak

Kalau mampu beli kereta mewah

Kalau tak mampu beli kereta yg kita mampu

Sebab beli kereta nie tujuan utamanya satu

Untuk memudahkan kita..panas, hujan n etc

Tudung pun sama 

Ia untuk tutup aurat kita

Jadi jgn sampai timbul riak

Yg penting ukur baju badan sendiri

Hak orang hak orang

Hak kita hak kita

Kes famos minggu ni, tudung FAREEDA 

Frankly mmg ibu n our family ada beli tudung FAREEDA and ada je yg labuh so its kinda weird kenapa org ckp singakt n pendek, Its up to ur choice. Pilihla yg menepati kelabuhan, kecantikan n kemampuan kita. 

Pasal patent, itu mmg hak die n die boleh ambil apa juga tindakan pada yg piratekan tudung die. Mahal die bayar nak petentkan tudung tu, beribu2 uolls. So, adil x bg die? Pada saya tak adil sbb yg pirate x bersusah payah memikirkan design dan mempromotekan brg2, hanya sbb nak mendapatkan barang yg sama dgn harga yg murah, pembeli pon belilah yg pirate. Pirate akan tetap pirate even kalau bukan sbb tudung atau x.

Cuma pada saya, tindakan rampas tudung ciplak tu wajar sbb itu mcm pencurian diatas usaha / karya org lain. 

Nota kaki : Again, tepuk dada tanyalah selera n jgn lupa ukur kemampuan diri. Tp jgnlah dok gile brand pulak, laen jadinya nanti ❤️

otak vs hati

i wonder why the grass is green & why the wind is never seen
who taught the birds to build a nest & told the trees to take a rest
when the moon is not quite round & where can the missing bit be found
who light the stars & when they blow out & makes the lightening flash about
who paints the rainbows in the sky & hangs the fluffy clouds so high

nota kaki :

uni_corn

Always be yourself!! Unless u can be someone else.. Else? well i love and for me the else will be a UNICORN.. why? When i'm thinking of a unicorn, i'm always imagine something beautiful, magical, mythical, rare creature (this was since my toddlers time i guess.. fantasy babe!)

I love when someone referred me to something that is beautiful and rare.. Well for me rare is special.. something that u can't found daily and always..  Thus, I always remember... believe & be myself.

nota kaki: But if there's a situation where I could come across as being beautiful, magical, or rare in nature...I do it!

questionnaire

May of us suffer deeply as every single thing sin this whole world has it way. Is it fair fo rus to question our fate n destiny? I dun think so.. Its all qada'n qadar and being stated up there at the Loh Mahfuz. Yes, we may try so hard to make it differ than it should be, but did u know what it should be? Allah S.W.T know and only HIM know that. 


U hope, i hope, all of us hope that whatever we/ve wish for standing in front of us, happen to us. have u ever made the coincidental?? if you had so, ts a dream come true babe!! But for me, every sinle day is a new day for me, live, life, laugh, sad, mad, overreact, annoying and sometime hard to handle. Well, most of the time hard to handle!! 


nota kaki: for HIM who make the best judgement about us

Rapuh

mr..

i just wanna get married to my bestest best friend.
i wanna talk to him forever because he gets me and honest.
i wanna listen to him till i fall asleep.
i wanna make him laugh and laugh at him.
i want to be by his side when he succeed, and when he doesn't.
i want to force him to eat my homecooked meals and desserts *eventhough he doesn't like them. don't care.
i want to be at home to greet him when he comes back from work.
i want to be led by him when praying.


foot note: dear Mr future, i bet ur not reading this but i do hope soon you able to appreciate me the way i do.. Insya Allah..

♥ me ♥ U ♥

Nobody kills me like you  
Nobody gets me like you do
Nobody thrills me like you do 
Nobody cares for me like you do
Nobody listens to me like you do
Nobody talks to me like you do 
Nobody holds me like you do
Nobody sings to me like you do
Nobody adores me like you do

But
What makes the most is
Nobody loves me like Allah S.W.T ♥

Hatiku

aku mmg manusia yang lemah.. sgt tak kuat tapi aku sdg cuba utk kuatkan hati sediri sbb aku percaya Allah sentiasa denganku.. bisikan kata-kata manusia sekelling ditambah dunia yg sesak selalu utk melemahkan semangat untuk diri ini berubah.. sgt mudah aku tersasar tapi syukur aku sentiasa mendapat semangat daripada yang tersayang.. keluarga dan mereka yg rapat pasti tahu.. mencuba n terus mencuba mengikhlaskan hati kerana Allah Taala.. titisan air keluar daripada mata sesekali... terlalu byk khilaf dan dosa yang aku buat sepanjang 26 tahun.. kadang2 terasa tidak akan diberi peluang untuk balik ke jalan yang benar..

selalu aku befikir, aku bertudung tapi cukup ke tudung yg membaluti rambutku? aku sdg belajar menutupi auratku supaya sempurna walaupun tidak sempurna saat ini.. Solat, jarang2 sekali cukup 5 waktu sehari semalam.. aku x malu berkata sbb itu diri aku.. tapi sentiasa aku berdoa agar hati ini istiqamah dengan perubahan yg aku rasa perlu pada diri ini walaupun sedikit demi sedikit.. Insya Allah.. 

terbayang saat mendengar kata-kata Ustaz Yusnan dalam slot Feqh Dakwah sangat membuka hati aku.. "Antara memakai tudung dan solat, mestilah kita ingatkan tentang solat dahulu." 

saat membaca nota2, terjumpa sabda Rasullullah S.A.W,

"Cukuplah bagimu empat wanita terbaik di dunia iaitu Maryam bt Imran, Siti Khadijah bt Khuwailid, Fatimah bt Muhammad dan Asiah, isteri Fir'aun" 

                                                                                                      -hadith riwayat Ahmad, Abdurrazaq, Trimidzi, Ibnu Hibban dan Hakim

Ya Allah, ampunkanlah aku. Sesungguhnya aku tidak layak masuk syurgamu, tetapi tidak pula ku sanggup menanggung seksa nerakamu. Kau pimpinlah aku menuju ke jalan orang yang bertakwa iaitu orang yang mendapat hidayah. Istiqomahlah hati ini. Kurniakanlah aku keluarga, kekasih, dan sahabat daripada orang yang soleh dan solehah. Amin...

Nota kaki: Bila dia di hatiku berkata..

syukur

A devout Muslim women have never felt lonely

because the presence of God is closer than her own veins

Crap!!

Down, dat just suits me now!! U know what i think hurts me most? The facts that ive been replaced n no matter what u did it wasn't enough.. I've no regret but i miss us.. don't get me wrong bestfren, I dont mean us being together as i noe that Allah have planned everything for a reason, i mean like i miss u being so close like our kids, teenage and study life.. Telling each other everythings with no doubt n worries.. 😣

bitch slap??

If you ask me how am I doing lately..  I’ll say “I’m ok”

but actuallly.. “I’m not  ok”

Tapi muka nampak happy je kan?

I’m trying to be strong, for the sake of him..

like seriously i just let his call ringing without an asnwer.. 

i do take it after 5-6 times... 

talking like nothing happens.. but the truth is I’m on the verge of crying!

Nota kaki: Hanya mampu berdoa je.. sebab malas nak fikir.  Kalau menangis pun, buat pedih mata.. kan???

ape?

what a weekend, hectic? nope!!
probably this is the most unwanted weekend i wish in my life..
lies, dishonesty, sorrow.. but one for sure..

mengantuk, nk tido!
k bai!!

Nota Kaki: hati lega dapat menulis, di post ke lautan jaluran lebar pasti belum tentu...

me n u

i just had a great conversation with yo u last time we're on outing
it was an awesome =)
i feel so great i can actually tell u all that.

But, it is the correct time for me to ask you da question
question which i can't really ask u dat night..


nota kaki: saya pemalu okay! have u ever feel somethin towards me like i do??

beribu sesalan

Terlanjur kata boleh di undur, terlanjur kata...?? penat memohon sekalipun, kalau dah tekesan di hati sang lelaki itu pasti susah untuk di robohkan benteng kepercayaan.. salah sendiri aku akui, diri sendiri yang menanggung sakit tu.. payah sgt payah untuk diri ini menahan dari berlaku tp itulah yg terjadi... wahai hati bersabarlah.. sesungguhnya aku tahu yg hati ini lebih kuat walau x bertulang.. 

perjalanan membuatkan kita mengenal  kehidupan sebenar.. bermula dr cinta monyet, kucing atau mungkin  apa jenis sekalipun, kesan di hati pasti akan ada, walau mungkin cinta itu dtg hanya untuk sebentar.. 

hampir setahun aku mencuba bertanya si hati, siapa dia?? dan akhirnya aku temu jawapan. pasti? tp bagaimana?? ak yg menidakkan dulu, kini aku yg mengiyakan.. berputar2 dan akhirnya pasti.. tapi, pasti itu bukan janji Allah.. janji Allah hanya benar bila pasti istikharah menjadi jelas.. dan aku hampir pasti akan kejelasan itu.. itu janji Allah yg sebenar =)

Ya Allah,

"Jika namamu yang ditulis di Luh Mahfuz untuk diriku, nescaya rasa cinta itu akan Allah tanamkan dalam diri ku.. Tugas pertamaku bukan mencari dirimu tetapi mensolehahkan diriku."

"Sukar untuk mencari soleh dirimu andai solehahku tidak setanding dengan kesolehahanmu. Janji Allah pastiku pegang dalam misi mencari diri 'Lelaki yang baik untuk wanita yang baik."

Seandainya rindu ini suci maka kuatkanlah...

Seandainya ukhuwah ini kudus maka panjangkanlah...

Seandainya luka ini berhikmah maka biarlah...

Seandainya ingatan ini berfaedah maka teruskanlah...

foot note: sesal itu pasti berguna suatu hari nanti #_#

saddy maddy part 2!!

A devout Muslim women have never felt lonely

because the presence of God is closer than her own veins

nota kaki: plese be thankful on what u have

saddy maddy

currently saya adelah emotional

new job

new workplace

new environment

new colleages

new tasks

new bosses

new mak cik jijah / dulu auntie roslin

new lah segalanya!!!!