😍😍😍

You were born in a first class hospital, I was delivered at home, we both survived.

You went to a private primary school and I went to a public school, we both ended in the same high school.

You woke up from the bed and I woke from the floor, we both had a peaceful night rest.

Your outfits are all expensive, mine are all simple and cheap, we both still cover our nakedness.

You ate fried rice and roasted chicken, I ate local made food but we both still ate to our satisfaction.

You ride on Lexus jeep, Range Rover, G Wagon, Hummer Jeep and I use public transport but we still got to our various destination.

You may be reading this post from your Sony xperia, BB Z10, Q10, Samsung Galaxy 6edge, IPhone6+ and I typed it with my Touch one broken screen, we still see the message.

Lifestyle is not a competition and there are different ways to get a lot of things done, different lanes all leading to the same destination. Just because your neighbour is doing things faster does not mean you are failing.

Happiness doesn't come from having everything, but making the best out of what you have, it's all about how you see yourself.

Happiness is not having what you like. Happiness is liking what you have and being content.

PD gateway

PD gateway dgn kesayangan's

Nota kaki: its a short one, but we did it great starting with good food at nelayan, makan, tido, bbq, beach walk, swimming pool, cendol, serenity anddd finish with good homemade food by all of us ..

dunia aku

Jadi, sentiasa ingat, orang yang perlu diutamakan lebih daripada diri sendiri, adalah ibu bapa kita. Seperti mana mereka sanggup tidak makan hanya untuk kita makan, seperti mana, mereka sanggup tidak ada baju baru, hanya untuk membelikan kita baju. 

Sekiranya sahaja, bukan kerana usia pasti mereka akan tetap berbuat begitu sehingga nafas terakhir mereka."

Aku diam dan, hati aku terusik... Cepat-cepat aku kelip2 kan mata. 

Sungguh indah aturan Tuhan malah diaturkan sekali aku berbicara dengan ustazah itu hanya untuk aku cepat2 menelefon ibu dan ayah di kampung.

happy birthday hummer

If u were here.. u'll be 3yo today..

Hummer selalu ada dlm hati..

Ingatan x kan pernah pudar

Moga kau tenang kesayangan ku..

Mommy will always ❤️ U

Happy birthday ibu!!

Happy birthday ibu yg ke 65..

Terima kasih sbb melahirkan, menjaga n memberi ilmu pada ateh..

Terlampau banyak jasa n pengorbanan yg ibu lakukan..

yg mungkin x terucap dek bibir, terpancar dr sinar mata jauh lagi hilang dari hati.. 

Tidak semudah kata kata mampu untuk ateh balas jasa ibu pada ateh selama ni..

I love u ibu❤️ jaga makan n pantang tgn tuu😍

Nota kaki: proud n happy to be ur dotter 😍😍

Life

Things never end up perfectly according to our wishes and dreams. Sometimes perhaps👌

As we believe in somebody, its worth it until a chaos has wrecked it. For instace, a big ship can sunk into the deep sea 😓

We are just normal human without super ability, we planned yet HE decides.. #life

Foot note : i saw u at your worst but i stayed. U saw me at my best and u still left. 

mer mer

andainya mer mer tahu how much mommy rindu mer mer...

hikmah kehilangan =)

Apa hikmah Allah ambil/tarik/hilangkan sesuatu yg kita sayang?

“Sebab Allah nak tunjukkan yang tak semua benda kita sayang tu milik kita.”

Tapi sebenarnya, benda paling perlu untuk kita ingat dan fokuskan sesutau yg perlu kita tanamkan dalam hati dan kehidupan seharian..‘Hikmah kehilangan sesuatu yg kita sayang adalah supaya kita belajar untuk meletakkan kebergantungan hanya pada Allah’

Looking back.. further back through my daily life, im totally depend son others.. contohnya, bila i x cukup duit i ask from my mom, bila sedih cari mak or anaybody yg i comfy with, bila putus cinta (way behind) cari bff nak cite, bila happy cari kawan2 parrttyy (#eh =p x la  party sgt, tp mkn tempat best la kan?) bila rasa gewan hummer n etta comel sgt, borak2 dgn die n picit2, cium2 dgn gewamnya sampai dieorang lemass.. haaa, mcm tu la contohnya.. kita da get use berharap pada others and at one time, bila Allah tarik nikmat tu.. damm!! u feel lost, rasa mcm its not fair, why its happen to u n yadaa yadaa yadaa..

i was cryin like hell i tell you.. but, i sedar that hummer akan masuk syurga as that janji Allah untuk all the animals.. the'll q to get to heaven insyaAllah. dis few day/week i do admit yg i was too emosional effects loosing hummer =(

despite of all that, yg bagi i 'hummer' dulu my supervisor, but its actually dr Allah.. Dia Yang Maha Memberi, Yang Maha Mendengar tu pun Allah. Che Maznah tu as medium perantaraan je. Kalau betul kita hanya bergantung pada Allah, kita takan sedih bagai nak giler, bila sesuatu yg kita sayang tu pergi dari kita.. Sebab kita ada strong faith yang Allah tetap ada untuk kita.. Allah takkan pernah hilang..  dan tempat bergantung kita takkan pernah hilang atau kurang.. =)

im grievin, yes! tapi biarlah kesedihan itu berpada-pada.. & for me, bila kita selalu mengajar diri untuk tidak terlalu meletakkan pengharapan seratus peratus pada bende/bende sekeliling, kesedihan itu tidak akan berpanjangan dan dapat di kawal.. wallahualam..

nota kaki: mommy always love mer mer.. #hugs 

RIP Hummer

the last time i saw hummer was friday eve while i balik kerja n he was chillin under the rambutan tree looking at me.. dat was weird, sbb selalunya die akan sibuk nak masuk dlm rumah n makan.. but, i was in hurry sbb havin my menstrual.. masuk dlm, mandi then when i start looking and calling his name.. die dah x de.. i tot die pergi clubbin somewhere but still dlm hati berkata2 manalah si mer mer ni pergi..

After a week, numbers of responds from others yg baca poster n flyers kucing i.. at last i dapat satu wassap dr somebody.. He's found hummer!! im so happy ya Allah, akhirnya Kau temukan aku semula dgn hummer..

but, it does not stop there...

He did gave me his home address, less than 100m from my current house.. dat noon, im having my outin withd x jijie, wan and aida distribute flyers.. then pergi lunch thus after that we back home for solat zuhur.. after solat zuhur, we headin to that guy house..

it was not a good news for me.. yes, he found hummer but its hummer's body.. =( ull get me rite? dat man found hummer's body around 9 - 9.30 pm.. hummer was hit by motorcycle (probably) as xde major injured.. his mouth was bleeding and i guess his neck patah kot.. poor my baby =( i was soo sad and was cryin all the way from my house to his house.. n die pon show me the picture yg die captured to proof that.. hes very sure that the cat was someone sbb the cat was so cantik, big and u no..

im grieving rite now.. hummer is my 1st baby.. its hard to loose him, mcm cepat sgt die pergi n leave me.. i still terbyg2 muke die pandang i dat evening.. mommy minta maaf sbb  xpanggil mer mer masa tu.. mommy harap mer mer maafkan semua salah mommy kalau mommy suke picit2, hugs and kissin u while u x redha.. how much mommy syg mer mer and i do hope u'll rmember me.. although Allah dah ambil nyawa mer mer, ull always be in my heart insyaAllah.. ull teach me so much about being a good mommy to u, person, daughter and resposibility.. mungkin, setakat ni jer jodoh mommy n mer mer..


nota kaki: etta is missin u, she did lost her appetite and mcm byk termenung.. although mer mer xde dgn mommy lagi, mommy harap mer mer dapat doakan mommy dpt jaga etta baik2..

rest in peace my dear baby 8th April 2012 - 6th february 2015

Misi mencari HUMMER.. =(

Masih dlm proses mencari "hummer".. dah seminggu hummer x balik rumah. Sebelum ni die pernah hilang 3-4 hari n masa tu pon i dah macam org giler cari die.. normally die akan kluar pagi2 waktu kita sebok nak pergi kerja, petang bila kita balik, die dah tunggu depan pintu n x sabar2 nak masuk.. lepas isya dlm jam 10-11 die kluar balik n balik tgh2 pagi dalam jam 4-5pagi..  i slalo la cakap dgn die, knp la mer mer ni suke sshkan hati mommy, kluar balik lambat.. kalau weekend , die jarang kluar sbb die tau i ade kat rumah.. n another things sbb die x suke panas..=(

satu lagi perangai die ni, die hanya makan makanan die.. even bila i letak wetfood die jarang2 nak makan.. boleh kira seumur hidup i dgn die boleh kira berapa kali die nak makan wet food tu.. die hanya tau makanan favourite die RC persian 32 jer.. kalau balik tu mmg sbb nak makan.. ni, sampai sekarang x b alik2 lagi, ntah makan ke tidak? tido mcm mana.. dahla mer mer tu x tahan panas..

i've no idea where;s hes been.. tp hati kuat rasa yg die dgn somebody.. dah berhari2 jalan2 cari kat dlm taman.. tampal poster.. flyers.. tp x gibve up lagi cari mer mer.. exceli dis month due date ubacacing n kutu die.. x sempat lagi bawa pergi vet..

i harap sgt, kalau ade org jumpa, please pulangkan hummer balik.. x kisahla sihat ke x.. i misss my son soo much!! cepat balik tau hummeer.. mommy always miss and waits for u.. mer mer 1st baby mommy.. kerama mer mer, mommy nangis every day.. berkali2 setiap hari kadang2 kat opis pon nangis..

nota kaki: mer mer, please be home!!  mommy & etta miss u sooo much

hummer =(

mer mer.. mana mermer pergi??

 please back home..

mommy rindu hummer sgt.. =(

nota kaki: mommy rindu ni! please backkkkk =(

dimana dimana

he's been missing again!!!

nota kaki : missin u baby

Period Part 3

dah lama x update.. i jumpa draft pasal Period Part 3 story... after 1-2 years baru sambung balikk.. kau mampu?? hahhaha.. then, bila saya habis belajar saya start keje tapi mula2 dapat training dgn klia.. so, dah start ada duit sdiri *hiphiphooray* tp xlah byk sgt.. but, alhamdulillah!!!

n start kerje klia, i start eating healthy food, clean giler!! malam lepas 6 mmg x mkn.. siang pon makan vegie n nasi kurangkan..protein, serat lebihkan.. sgt consisten kot time niee.. x lama lepas tu i start makan herbalife.. ice mmg sto trus  and x mkb ubat hormon lagi setiap bulan.. ubat tu nak force period datang.. a the same time, ibu byk advise and bg minum jus/cider delima, aloe vera and kurma n i feel bless.. syukur alhamdulilah ... HERBAlife?? serius is a good product.. masalah pada saya.. as i consume HB, i lost my weight, my period stabil without ubat but its not my blood.. the soy contains in my blood increase and its affect me.. So, i stop HB.. n da problem start back.. tp dis time my period datang every 2 month n x la mcm dulu.. in a consistent day and time.

so dont give up!! tipu la kalau saya ckp saya x give up.. tp, saya recall balik n ingat what have my mother do n help me through it all this while.. tp saya faham sbb saya i tau how pressure u are sbb bertahun2 u try to identified and nak settlekan masalah tu tp x sudah2.. but, alhamdulillah things gets better!

menggembirakan org adalah penawar kepada kesedihan.. kita happykan orang and moment tu tuhan je yg tau bagaimana happynya hati kita bila kita gembirakan others..automatik saya terasa mahu mendoakan agar mereka diberi limpahan rezeki..so bayangkanlah betapa ramai org mendoakan kite kalu kite mengembirakan ramai orng...

Nota kaki: Refer Part 1 and Part 2... =)

Kucing, Kitty, Cat

Abu Qatadah berkata bahawa Nabi Muhammad SAW pernah bersabda, 
"Kucing itu tidak najis. Ia binatang yang suka berkeliling di rumah (binatang perumahan)," 

[Hadis Riwayat At-Tirmidzi, An-Nasa'i, Abu Dawud, dan Ibnu Majah]. 

Diriwayatkan dari Ali bin Al-Hasan, dan Anas yang menceritakan bahawa Nabi Muhammad SAW pergi ke Bathhan suatu daerah di Madinah. Lalu, baginda bersabda, 

"Ya Anas, tuangkan air wudhuk untukku ke dalam bejana." 

Lalu, Anas menuangkan air. Ketika sudah selesai, Nabi menuju ke bejana. Namun, seekor kucing datang dan menjilati bejana. Melihat itu, Nabi berhenti sehinggalah kucing tersebut berhenti minum lalu (baginda) berwudhuk. Nabi ditanya mengenai kejadian tersebut, beliau menjawab,

"Ya Anas, kucing termasuk perhiasan rumah rumah tangga, ia tidak dikotori sesuatu, bahkan tidak ada najis." 

Diriwayatkan dari Dawud bin Shalih At-Tammar dan ibunya yang menerangkan bahawa hambanya memberikan Aisyah semangkuk bubur. Namun, ketika ia sampai di rumah Aisyah, tenyata Aisyah sedang solat. Lalu, ia memberikan isyarat untuk menaruhnya. Sayangnya, setelah Aisyah menyelesaikan solat, ia lupa pada buburnya. Datanglah seekor kucing, lalu memakan sedikit bubur tersebut. Ketika ia melihat bubur tersebut dimakan kucing, 'Aisyah RA lalu membersihkan bahagian yang disentuh kucing, dan Aisyah memakannya. Rasulullah SAW bersabda, 

"Ia tidak najis. Ia binatang yang berkeliling." Aisyah pernah melihat Rasulullah SAW berwudhuk dari sisa jilatan kucing, [Hadis Riwayat AlBaihaqi, Abd Al-Razzaq, dan Al-Daruquthni].

Hadis ini diriwayatkan dari Malik, Ahmad, dan Imam Hadis yang lain. Oleh kerana itu, kucing adalah binatang, dimana, peluh, bekas dari sisa jilatannya adalah suci. Nabi Muhammad SAW juga pernah memberi gelaran kepada Abd al-Rahman ibn Sakhr Al-Azdi sebagai "Abu Hurairah" yang beerti "Bapa anak-anak kucing" kerana sikapnya yang sangat menyayangi kucing.

Nota kaki: hummer & etta mommy loves u

16 rabiul awal 1437 H = my day !!

kalau ikut bulan islam, 

im officially 29 today =)

IBU

Dan apabila mata ibumu sudah tertutup, 

maka hilanglah satu keberkatan didunia ini, 

keberkatan doa seorang ibu.. 

Ateh syg ibu ❤️

Happy burthday IBU

April 7 here we are again!! Another wiser and older.. Sorry ibu but ateh ❤️ U soo much n i bet no words could descrribe how owsem n great u are since i was born!! May Allah bless your life thoroughly, murah rezeki, pjg umur n insyaAllah ill be your good daughter up to Jannah😘

Ibu, i love you so much as nothing in this world better than you. U are superwoman, queen og my heart and the best mom in this world. you willing to do everything, just for me eventhough you look so tired.

i thank you for always yelling to me when i was wrong

i know you always give your love to me since i was child untill now

i believe that u wont you let anybody hurt  me and you always give me first place in your hear 

from your dotter : ateh loves you ibu and always ❤️ U insyaAllah

Period Part 2

waaa... baru perasan post ni x terpost.. padahal dah tersimpan dlm draft lama dah.. phewww pheeww berhabokk =)

After balik from OnG tu, die suggest i makan EPO.. n of course all the cost my mom yg tanggung.. n it doesnt stop there.. start dr jumpa O&G tu, mmg berulang alik hosp selang 3 bulan.. she did ask me tuk makan ubat hormon insead of EPO.. so, i akan makan ubat tu in 3 month time, after that stop for next three month.. during that time, mmg hidup dgn pills and supplements but i x give up sbb i nak period every month! dats my aim.. tp period still x datang every month.. its only come every couple of months tp its teratur n dts make me happy.. a happy i am at dat time =)

but, it still x make me recover fully.. so, bila period x dtg dlm masa 3 month yg makan ubat tu, again i pergi jumpa O&G back.. thank god doctor tu jenis yg support and explain to me in details.. bila u x dtg period, mksdnya ur hormom is not stable, ur ovari could produce an egg and most probably u akan ada masalah untuk get pregnant when u get married.. i was shocked! sapa x nak pregnant n having a baby kan?? so, what i shall do?? i rmember at that time, i was shaking and sad.. but the doc again explain it to me.. its not us, the doc who can guarantee whether u ca have baby or not.. its God (she did say god, as my doc is buddhist) and thats make me smile againn=)

i did continue consuming the pills dr i form 4 sampaila i masuk u.. roughly about 10 years!! give up x yah cakaplaaa.. sentiasa nak give up but im thnakfull sbb my ibu n close friends yg tau masalah i support.. even kakak housemate masa kat uitm pon support n itu antara penyebab i x jadi nak give even kadang2 give up sbb bosan makan ubat..=p  

masa i kat uitm, doc did as me tuk datang on my 3rd day of period.. nak scan PCOS.. what is PCOS.. kita sambung next la eh.. wannna have my sleep nak koje besok!!! jauh nak travellll

Nota kaki : ibu slalu ckp, jgn give up sbb sakit ateh ni sikit je banding ape yg org lain alami.. so, dats part of the reason i kekal positive n x give up on my life.. part 1 kat sini

my day =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME 

OFFICIALLY 27

Period Part 1

sebenarnya ini masalah saya dari mula2 akil baligh lagikk.. sejak dari anak dara lagi period saya x teratur.. masa form 2 which is 14 years old ive got my 1st period and yg second datang a year after which masa i form 3! imagine, setahun sekali.. tp masa tu x kisah sgt.. tp masa form 3 tu peliklaa.. sbb my friends ramai yg period teratur.. mcm jeles.. so, once masuk form 4 sy jd memang cuak sebab tak ade period untuk setahun.. so, my mom bawa pergi ke hospital.. 

pergi jumpe doctor & time tu doctor cakap normal lah.. sbb saya stress & i kan remaja. So balik kt umah dengan hampanya.. but, its come with lots of ubat n medication in order tuk make sure my period stable.. but then period datang 2x sebulan.. Again pergi jumpe the same doctor.. masa tu doc tu cakap masalah tu hanya akan solve once i've get married.. and leps tu trus balik without any good explanation from her..

But, instead of that doc, my mom bawa i pergi jumpa OnG trus!! minum air masak byk2 sampai loya to make sure bladder penuh.. then, scan and they notice that my ovari is swollen (my right ovari).. sedih okay!! thats mean, i mmg kne makan ubat yg sgt byk...