Did i?

Being in control of our life & having realistic expectations about our day-to-day challenges are the keys to stress management..

 which is perhaps the most important ingredient to living a happy, healthy and rewarding life =)

dunia aku

Jadi, sentiasa ingat, orang yang perlu diutamakan lebih daripada diri sendiri, adalah ibu bapa kita. Seperti mana mereka sanggup tidak makan hanya untuk kita makan, seperti mana, mereka sanggup tidak ada baju baru, hanya untuk membelikan kita baju. 

Sekiranya sahaja, bukan kerana usia pasti mereka akan tetap berbuat begitu sehingga nafas terakhir mereka."

Aku diam dan, hati aku terusik... Cepat-cepat aku kelip2 kan mata. 

Sungguh indah aturan Tuhan malah diaturkan sekali aku berbicara dengan ustazah itu hanya untuk aku cepat2 menelefon ibu dan ayah di kampung.

Cor

Sometimes, you’ll just be too much woman

To smart, too strong, too beautiful and too much of something

That makes a man feel like less of a man

Which start making u feel like you have to be less of a woman

The biggest mistakes you can make is removing jewels from your crown

To make it easier for a man to carry 

When this happened, i need you to understand

You don’t need a smaller crown

You need a man with bigger hand

would u be wif me

the darn grass is always greener on the other side....

happy birthday hummer

If u were here.. u'll be 3yo today..

Hummer selalu ada dlm hati..

Ingatan x kan pernah pudar

Moga kau tenang kesayangan ku..

Mommy will always ❤️ U

24 hours?

like seriously.. this is not me.. im putting my 24 hours resignation letter to skypark..why its happen? all i can say is im not sure of being there.. the staff are good, but the boss n management dissapoint me..
babai skypark..

where should i go?? something to punder n im not regret with it =O

well, im stay connected with my previous boss n company.. alhamdulillah, when i bgtau what really happen to my ex boss, he easily get my point and always welcome me back.. well i guess, ICT world is worth me more than construction...it might be new things for me, but its a journey.. u'll enhance ur knowledge in differ discipline but who know? it will be my chance to explore and could be my future, right darla =P

im happy with my decision and i hope this is what i should do for my better future..

foot note : tq soo much for the 2 weeks KSPLP, but im more suits with MTSB.. =)

RIP Hummer

the last time i saw hummer was friday eve while i balik kerja n he was chillin under the rambutan tree looking at me.. dat was weird, sbb selalunya die akan sibuk nak masuk dlm rumah n makan.. but, i was in hurry sbb havin my menstrual.. masuk dlm, mandi then when i start looking and calling his name.. die dah x de.. i tot die pergi clubbin somewhere but still dlm hati berkata2 manalah si mer mer ni pergi..

After a week, numbers of responds from others yg baca poster n flyers kucing i.. at last i dapat satu wassap dr somebody.. He's found hummer!! im so happy ya Allah, akhirnya Kau temukan aku semula dgn hummer..

but, it does not stop there...

He did gave me his home address, less than 100m from my current house.. dat noon, im having my outin withd x jijie, wan and aida distribute flyers.. then pergi lunch thus after that we back home for solat zuhur.. after solat zuhur, we headin to that guy house..

it was not a good news for me.. yes, he found hummer but its hummer's body.. =( ull get me rite? dat man found hummer's body around 9 - 9.30 pm.. hummer was hit by motorcycle (probably) as xde major injured.. his mouth was bleeding and i guess his neck patah kot.. poor my baby =( i was soo sad and was cryin all the way from my house to his house.. n die pon show me the picture yg die captured to proof that.. hes very sure that the cat was someone sbb the cat was so cantik, big and u no..

im grieving rite now.. hummer is my 1st baby.. its hard to loose him, mcm cepat sgt die pergi n leave me.. i still terbyg2 muke die pandang i dat evening.. mommy minta maaf sbb  xpanggil mer mer masa tu.. mommy harap mer mer maafkan semua salah mommy kalau mommy suke picit2, hugs and kissin u while u x redha.. how much mommy syg mer mer and i do hope u'll rmember me.. although Allah dah ambil nyawa mer mer, ull always be in my heart insyaAllah.. ull teach me so much about being a good mommy to u, person, daughter and resposibility.. mungkin, setakat ni jer jodoh mommy n mer mer..


nota kaki: etta is missin u, she did lost her appetite and mcm byk termenung.. although mer mer xde dgn mommy lagi, mommy harap mer mer dapat doakan mommy dpt jaga etta baik2..

rest in peace my dear baby 8th April 2012 - 6th february 2015

IM529 & MH370

Angkatan Belia Islam Malaysia (ABIM) mengecam sekeras-kerasnya hukuman mati yang dikenakan oleh Mahkamah Mesir hari ini ke atas 529 orang penyokong Presiden Mesir yang dipilih secara sah menerusi demokrasi, Dr.Mohamad Morsi. 

Sesungguhnya hukuman ini merupakan langkah ke belakang yang menjanjikan masa depan yang serba gelap terhadap amalan demokrasi serta rakyat Mesir keseluruhannya.

Hukuman ini jelas merupakan rentetan daripada langkahjy kuku besi yang didalangi oleh regim pemerintah Mesir untuk mengukuhkan cengkaman kuasa mereka. Cengkaman itu meliputi memberikan kuasa yang lebih besar ke atas Supreme Council of the Armed Forces (SCAF) yang bertindak menafikan samasekali kebebasan serta hak rakyat Mesir untuk bersuara!

ABIM menilai hukuman mati yang dikenakan itu merupakan campur tangan regim pemerintah untuk menakut-nakutkan rakyat Mesir menjelang pilihanraya Presiden Mesir tidak lama lagi. Esok, Selasa 25 Mac 2013, seramai 700 lagi saki baki daripada kira-kira 1200 para penyokong Morsi pula yang akan dibicarakan atas dakwaan mencetuskan huru hara serta mengancam ketenteraman awam.

Usaha untuk memusnahkan gerakan Ikhwan Muslimin yang bergerak serta berdiri di atas dukungan akar umbi rakyat Mesir semakin berleluasa dengan 'pembunuhan kehakiman' terhadap 529 mangsa terbaru ini. Tanggapan bahawa hukuman ini hanya bersifat “domestik” serta tidak mencakupi kepentingan masyarakat awam di peringkat antarabangsa seharusnya dikikis. Pastinya kezaliman terbaru ini bakal merancakkan lagi gerakan diktator negara-negara Arab yang kini bergerak aktif memburu simpatisan Ikhwan Muslimin khususnya di Bahrainn, UAE dan Arab Saudi.

ABIM menegaskan bahawa kemelut politik Mesir ini adalah polemik sejagat yang bakal menjejaskan kestabilan politik dunia. Kebangkitan rakyat Mesir merupakan simbol kebangkitan demokrasi berinspirasikan rakyat yang tertindas. sejak sekian lama. Sikap membisu serta menutup mata masyarakat antarabangsa merupakan pengkhianatan terhadap demokrasi itu sendiri!

Oleh itu, ABIM menggesa rakyat Malaysia serta masyarakat antarabangsa untuk menyuarakan secara lantang tentangan mereka terhadap kezaliman ini. Demi ke arah memartabatkan Demokrasi, Kebebasan, Serta Karamah Insaniah rakyat Mesir dan umat secara keseluruhannya. We Are All Ikhwan (Kita Semua Adalah Bersaudara). 

Amidi Abd Manan, Presiden, Angkatan Belia Islam Malaysia / Muslim Youth Movement of Malaysia (ABIM)

2 berita sedih... 

MH370 berakhir di lautan hindi.

IM529 berakhir di tali gantung

MH370 mungkin mengorbankan 227 penumpang

IM529 akn mengorbankan 529 sbg syuhada'

MH370 mendpt perhatian dunia

IM529 tidak mendpt perhatian dunia

MH370 tidak diketahui motif ke lautan hindi

IM529 bermotif zalim ke tali gantung

MH370 diketuai oleh pilot yg hebat kapten Zaharie..

IM529 diketuai oleh mujahid ulung al mursyidul am Ikhwan Muslimin Dr Badi'....

Takziah buat keluarga MH370&IM529...

Al-Faatihah.....

Beda bukan

Kadang2 x tahu..
Mana yg betul,
Mana yg salah,
Kenapa marah?
X bolehkah teguran dgn cara yg betul?
Perlukah semua mengikut kehendak kita
Manusia...
Ragam n sifat
Semuanya beda..
Kau dan aku
X kan sama..

Satu..
Hormat..
Ragam mungkin berbezaa
Tapi sifat..
Itu semulajadi diri mereka
Berckp itu senang..
Buktikan!

Faultness

Its been awhile seems everything start to mess up .

The question that have been in my head all the time . 

Burst out in a blink , hurts , torn . 

Changing the thoughts in my mind about how to appreciate life more . 

People come and go .
The feelings stay .

Everything changed and it effects me .

pulang

Asssalamualaikum, 

hey, hello,hi u awesome people!! its been ages it seems since i last updated my blog =) well, basically its been more than 2 months since my last x best update.. i feel I’ve neglected due to my hectic responsibilities each day... weekk =P 

I am trying to be as energetic as possible.. to be extremely positive now.. just pass SIRIM audit and today I thought of just sharing some of my personal experience / encounters / stories tht i’ve had the past few months...

laugh, mad, sad, excitement, grumpy, n the hard part is when u down.. its not that easy to cry, but i have u really experience crying for something you think is out of this world & is in your heart? it's beyond ordinary but its do gives a great content feeling to our heart.. this is when u found what u have been missing all this while.. the unexplainable.

life seem likes a burning candle.. what is left by a burning candle is just ashes from melted wax.. what is left from a broken soul is just a last tear drop from a broken spirit.. and spirit is what we =)

the sun do rise everyday.. the sun shines around us, gives us light, gives us many graet days.. but, in the end the sun that we own is in us. Our heart should shine everyday to create the best light in our soul.. we are happiness within u.. 

nota kaki : setiap kali kita berfikir, kita berada di dalam ruang itu... Itulah dunia kita yang lagi satu

maafkan..

its word much wednesday

Did u have purpose in life?? 

My entire life people pushed me to be ordinary, sumone which i'm not independently wanna be. Every single person which exist in my life questioning, criticizing my act and the decision i made. Okay, lets follow them, edited enough i guess =) Im not sure whether i have the capability to accept any of them and turn into something constructive now. Ex boyfriend looked for ordinary. But i always thought that i was worth more than that. noted =) 

nota kaki : that's all I could do more than just being a girl.

sakit

ptg td, ibu telefon.. yeeaay!!! super happy =)

borak2 dgn ibu, n she told that my anak2 sakit.. 

uwwuwuwu... pity them!!

ibu bawa pergi clinic n they get an injection n medicine.. 

tq ibu!!

fote note: i miss all those moments  with them!! wiken mari pulang melaka +_+

burning candle & melted wax

hurm.. where should i start?? ade org kata kalau kita nak lupekan sesuatu yg pahit tu, all we have to do is just let it go. tapi, selagi die ade dlm hati, otak, bdan (boley ke) atau memori kita pastilah dan haruslah sgt susah nak dilepaskan, dilupekan dan dihilangkan.. penat mengeluh setiap saat, minit, jam, hari.. berganti minggu, berbalas bulan & bertahun selangnya.. Yes!! mmg untu melupekan, tp hati? my mom once said, its funny how ur heart can't lied to you, but ur brain can easily change..(qoutes by mummy) again, i'm writing this bukan nak mengingatkan jauh nak mengharapkan die dtg balik.. cume nak melepaskan yg spetutnya, x tertanggung dek hati +_+

Most of us agreed that first ❤ mmglah sgt susah nak lupe.. yes i do admit!! mizi (but its not about mizi now) was the first n it takes me 5 years before i can start to fall ❤ again (fall ❤ again, ko nak fall ape suke hati ko la, gile hebat aku!) lol its funny how our life turns we up n down out of no where...so sudden!! once we're at the top and tibe2 we could far down below...the best most funniest moment is when we fall in ❤ with the most unexpected person (mule2 x suke then tibe2...well, u noe #_~) at the most unexpected time =(... quite hated it but at the +ve sight, that is life!!

-ve sight will always chase you, but its how your we judge the things!! +ve will never reflect without pure heart, good attitude & bright thinking!! xoxo

foot note: even the time sgt2 la sekejap... tp susahnya nak hilangkan dr hati.. owh, tuhan je tahu -__-

manek jernih

i hate when people asking me whether i'm okay or not!!

when i'm clearly not!!

nota kaki: people thinks that holding on makes us stronger, in my case its letting go that shapes me up.. semangat harus kuat wahai hati!!

hikayat seribu malam

Ya-Rabbul Ariffin Tuhanku seandainya telah kau takdirkan dia milikku, tercipta buatku, dekatkan lah hatinya dengan hatiku, tetapkan lah kemesraan antara kami agar kebahagiaan ini kekal abadi

Ya Muhaimin dan Tuhanku seiringkan lah kami mengharungi hidup luas ini, ke tepian yang sejahtera

Ya Rabbul Fatihin tetapi Tuhanku yang Maha Pengasih, seandainya telah kau takdirkan dia bukan milikku, bawalah dia jauh dari pandangan ku, luputkanlah dari ingatan ku & peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan...

Ya Rabbul Izzati serta Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti berilah aku kekuatan melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit hilang bersama senja nan merah & gelap pekat awan agar aku bisa bahagia walaupun tanpa bersama dgnnya

Ya Rabbul Quddus dan Tuhanku biar sekuat mana aku menyintainya aku pohon agar kau lenyapkan perasaan ini sekiranya dia ditakdirkan bukan milikku, gantilah yg telah hilang & tumbuhkanlah kembali yg patah walaupun tidak sama dgn dirinya

Ya Rahman Ya Rahim tapi sekiranya dia ditakdirkan untukku kupohan agar takdir memperkuatkan kasihku padanya selagi tidak melebihi kasihku padaMU,

Ya Allah ya tuhanku, pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan adalah yang terbaik kerana Engkau maha mengetahui segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu

Ya Allah cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku dunia dan di akhirat, dengarlah rintihanku & jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat, menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran, maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup ke jalan yang Engkau redhai & kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh....

Nota Kaki: padamu ku bersujud.. amin ya rabbal alamin.. salam ramadhan muslims

short me off!

I wish i could change everything in my life but its impossible. Its to hard to say and do, but i want to... why is the life to hard? Anywhere is like this? Can any person answer me this question. I want i could make my life better than now. I hate everyone who sebok2 kacau in my way specially HE but why is so so so !!!. i dont need to know every disgusting thing he think and do yet im the one yg update on him!! I cant take it any more i think im gonna blow up. I wish i could change everything in my lives and decide want is better for me and destroy whats wrong. But is impossible!! What is wrong with the world & why is this so unfair: if you dont have anything they stole that and if you have everything you feel so unhappy nothing is the right point between rich and poor.

sy ade blog *sigh*

lupa lagi?? berapa lamala nka tinggalkan blog ni bersarang kan?? da semak sungguh dah me tgk blog nie.. terbiar jew..huhuhu..tp me sgt x sempat nak update la..penat n x tau nak tulis ape.. taip sepatah pastue delete, pastue taip lagi delete lagi... kenapa erk?? apelah kan?? hohohoho... my life @ seremban sekarang okay..(should i put ok??) hahaha.. living under one roof dgn nora adelah sgt happy sbb die adelah sgt baek n saya tau die kadang2 byk mengalah dgn saya..saya mmg suke sshkan org kan?? herk~ sedar tp still buat jugak..apelah #_# (dush2!!)sumtymes i just realize die pandang i n i noe die mest asking y do i keep changing mood whenever people surround me change.. guess what, me pun xtau napa..but it is more sbb i mmg mcm tue..=) sigh*_*

seems evryting is okay for now..for now okay..end of this month will be an internal audit..ohohoho..*sgt best* middle of july nnt ade surveillance audit by sirim pulak.. sgt seronok kan??? masuk kerja trus kne audit, belum bulan dah kene sirim audit pulak.. adoila!! krek2..kruk2.. bunyi ape erk?? hehehe.. auit, material, document review?? NCR, site memo, blaa blaa blaa.. *nak kerja x leh berkira okay..nnt x berkat* pesan ibu saya..

hohoho, tp saya ttp ade mase tuk sedey n wendu2 kat sumo2 la.. no need to bgtau sape kan?? wee hee~ kantoi nnt!! hahahaa sgt wendu kamu byk tau tak..

nota kaki: saya curik2 updates blog gne pc opis..dieorg leh detect x?? wee hee~

my blacky shinny frog -_-

saya kehilangan katak hitam untuk minggu ini...
katak saya direhatkan di ward untuk dibaekpulih..-_-

maka,
segala kegiatan sosial akan dihentikan buat seketika..
segala masalah adalah diharapkan dimaafkan..

kesimpulannya,
saya akan pergi n balik kerja menumpang orang =l
ptg ini balik bukit canggang minta simpati dila hantar...
tp i still pay for tol n oil~~

foot note:jagalah hati org laen sebelum die saket..sekian =)